Dear Nastya,
What do you think, have you ever been in love? Like really for sure in love. That is a good question isn't it? And what do you think happened those two last beautiful nights in France? Do you think i am doing the same to every girl, or maybe it was something special?
You know, i have to be honest... i am alcoholic. I have a big problem. When i start, i can not stop until i am dead. And it is like that. Yes i am doing my job very well, and people respects me in my work, but everyone knows, that one morning i can come to work still with the smell of alcohol. But that is not the worst, the worst are all the stupid things that i have done while i am drunk. Some of them you can not change anymore and it is very hard for me... lets not talk about the sad things.
So what i do, i am looking for a help everywhere. Somehow, deep inside, i believe, that if i will find a right girl, if i will create a family, than i will have a purpose in my life and i will stop wasting myself... i do not know if it is possible, but i believe in that... But you know, the most funny part is that every time, when there is a chance, when it seems maybe i have found the right girl, i would like to try, but something happens, and i can not do that.... for example some stupid reason, that she goes back to her country Estonia or smth... so, i think you understand me... i had a chance once to follow a girl to a different country, i didn't, i was suffering, but in time i realised, that probably i have made a right decision. And i guess i am too old for things like that. Even if i would have a courage to do that, i couldn't, bcs i have still many debts here for people...
Or maybe...
I do not know...
Tell me something please, i think i will be much more calm if i will hear your opinion about that...
With warm wishes from France
мне кажется он пишет какую-то хрень чтобы я отстала просто. и кто-то там спрашивал про южные крови - нет, он прибалт ориджинали
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А другое, когда, как в данном случае, автору чревато переживаниями, сердечным томлением душевными страданиями - в такого рода "развлечениях" я всё же за то, чтоб если и "развлекаться" за чужой счёт.. Поэтому да,"как так можно?!" - но адресованное скорей девушке, чем парню.
